Another Outlet for My Reality Obsessed Self

Really, i shouldnt smoke pot before the mommy/daughter dance practice

Is the mommy/daughter dance practice really REALLY what i am doing on a Friday night? Yes i must smoke out.

What about a beer before the mommy/daughter dance practice ? would it be better to have beer on the breath or chronic weed smoke on the clothes? It's 12:58. I have to prepare NOW> it is 5:00 somewhere.

Fuck your friends girl, they just haters ( what? its a lyric !)

There are those boys who are tightey whiteys. Republicans

We got baggage, you know we're gonna drag it everywhere.we.go.for.everyone.to.see ( lyric)

Wanted : Friend who isnt afraid to get salty, to paddle out past the breakers, then go out for a beer with.

What ever happened on the Oprah interview with Elizabeth Edwards?

Is there anyone out there that doesn't think "their" situation or problem is the worst?

What do you do to people who have no manners? Ignore? Correct? i wish they would go away-there isn't much worse than being un-grateful , not saying thank-you , throw in a "wow your kids are cute", your house is nice, sending a thank you note, bringing your own food when you come for a week to my house, cause all this shit costs us lots of money... and we are north-indians ( north end of the island and we ain't gotttttt noooooooo monayyyyy.)

Labels: of mouths of sailors, unsettled

Labels: of mouths of sailors, perpetual, unsettled

Some random bits of fug



- I am planning a retreat for 140 women. wht?? how did someone put me in charge>? yikes. It is gonna be phenom though. I am very excited, mostly about my trip up the day before to unwind before everyone gets there.



- I am a weirdo- when i go to the grocery store, i drive home, i go inside without the bags, leave them in the trunk of the car, till i feel like draggin them in , usually 45 min later. i just like to chill for a mo before unloading. lol. am i lazy?? maybe



-one should not take bendryl with icehouse , no?



-blue october is a f-ed up band. but good to sing a long to

- wonder how many times the texts that i send to wes never make it cause i accidentally send them to O'Charleys, the address under his in my phonebook? the one tonight said something like "play hard, be careful, dont get hurt, love u" .

- did you know that i ROCK in guitar hero? hmmmmm hmmmmmmmmmm/ whats your favorite tune? i have to say social distortion story of my life or the one by miss murder. if you dont play, well you just dont get it.

- i read other blogs and think 'how profound their writing" and how enlightening their writing and here i go messing up cyberspace with my dribble? ug. oh well. i do love my neglected blog, .

- i am in da funk AGAIN. gah. will it ever end? this meaningless search of bars called O'malleys and islands in the sun that make me feel so fine i can't control my brain? if i dont get a vaca soon, i shall surely explode

- read 90 minutes in heaven. you can buy it at the grocery store for crying out loud! GET. IT.
what u up to lately? are you suffering from S.A.D?
love , from da funk

Labels: beertrash, nothingness, unsettled, vacations all i ever wanted

My computer is dying. This blog post is probably it's last meal.
Happy New Year.
Some random thoughts to try to make me not be in da funk.

My smart husband knows how to change out a hard drive , so tomorrow we are fixing the puter.

Natasha Bedingfield makes me HAPPY AS ALL GET OUT. she just does.

Pink 'phones are so cute with my mp3. they made a good stocking stuffer/

Will i make it to Greece this year? i have a propostion for Wes. he is off to honduras for 9 days in a few weeks ( sure , it is a work trip, but HELLO it is with his two best friends and i am sure he will get in tons of soccer games and a free day or two). I think i should go to Greece by myself. the cost is so great for us both and who will watch the kids after all? LOL> i need to freaking get away before i run away ( and maybe wont come back?) I am sure Chloe will steer me to the ferry for mykonos and santorini and where else? kos? i am SURE i could do just fine alone. i am nothing if not a savvy traveler. ha.

Lily Allen also makes me smile. (but you were f'ing that girl next door. what'd you do that for? is prob the greatest snide lyric in a song ever). and Poor Amy W. she is a poor mess.

My car died. RIP Alex the Escape. Welcome Silver Durango with 3rd row seating, which scares me to death. i dont WANT to be able to drag that many people along. nope, not at all. it is very cute and cheap payments and less payments. it shall be mine free and clear in way less than two years. and it is a V8, so it is kind of bad ass and beast like. I ordered a new salt life sticker for the back .

Labels: of mouths of sailors, unsettled, vacations all i ever wanted

I was invited out to lunch today with a random-ish group of girls. I am "friends" with most of them , and great friends with two of them, but all of us together was a different thing. actually it was a powerful thing. i cannot explain it , but i will try.
The LOVE i felt as we shared about this past week at church was almost like a warm blanket covering our table. I hope i dont freak you out with all my visions ( like That's so Raven!) and prophecys. I have a real "heart" for friendships/girlfriends/. I have hurt many people, people have hurt me, it is just in our nature. I always want to right a wrong though- I am a peacemaker of the group- of my extended family too. I am always on the look out for that next friend, not that the ones i have arent enough, but i keep feeling like there is something still to come, or someone or some situation.
A precious one at lunch today reminded me that Jesus had 12 disciples yet he had three that were his best friends. What a concept. What i learned today was that you cannot have 20 friends and pour everything into each and all of them. which is what i try to do. Most of my best friends are far away, in Texas , in Florida, etc...I am not talking about those- Those far away soul sisters are always in my mind, at the drop of a hat, would be here for me. What I crave is the one(s) that can intermingle , no secrets , deep devotion, .... I do have 1 or 2 of these friends already here, but there is more out there for me. maybe it is a deeper relationship with the ones that i already have. >? very quite possibly.

is friendship like a marriage, you think? my grandma says that marriage is so wonderful because you are the most important person in that spouse's life. are friendships like that?

blogfriends are so wonderful. they fill a void too. you are in a class to yourself. isnt it weird that we are best friends yet have never met? i am dying to go to canada and to greece for that exact reason.

ok BABBLE on Gi. sheesh. write me something good. i am going out tonight with a dear friend :) and will be in the bloggin mode when i come home.

Labels: friends, unsettled

Its tricky to rock around to rock around that's right on time its tricky.

I was looking at Holly's blog over there on my blog roll. She just moved to San Francisco not long ago, and today, my heart tore out just a little bit as i looked at her flickr photos of the path that she takes to work. I remember San Fran as one of the highlights of my life, fun and naughty all rolled up into one. Sigh. Sophie is or was in India, following her dream, not being a tourist but being "the people". Raising my kids inside a nice picket fence sounds nice and safe, but raising them in a small apartment in Italy sounds a lot more unique. walking to the grocery store, the flower store, the bakery... America is so different. I think i was meant to be euro. i hate super malls and super targets.... i like little quirky winding streets , mopeds, and siestas. everyone should get a break in the middle of the afternoon, yes?

in other news, i put in a contract today for some clients. oh God. it is sketchy. i love/hate/love/hate my job. Today was a total migraney-stress freaking nightmare. there was a war going on with the contract- it was like we were in Cali and clients were battling for a house! YIKES. i seriously need a Valium today.

In other other news, i am 2 weeks out of a retreat i have been planning for the women at my church. 2 weeks i say. not a good week for a battle over the house war.... i am in the weeds. it is going well, but i like to do things RIGHT so i am angst ridden.


justa, what day is top ten day?
here are mine.. i am so tart.
1. Baila Baila con migo-Salsa
2. It's Tricky- Beastie Boys for Holly (cause when we moved to SF, we had no furniture, so we promptly went to yard sales and bought a TURNTABLE and 50 vinyls- one of them being the beastie boys. Its Tricky reminds me of warm summer days (amid freaking freezing days!) windows open blaring this song.
3. Promiscuous Girl- Nelly
4. When the Stars go blue- Tim McGraw ( eww i hate country)
5. Steal my sunshine- Len
6. Accidentaly in love- Counting Crows
7. Tangerine- Led Zeppelin
8. -Rock and Roll Soniye-Kahbi Alvida Naa Kenha-- for Sophie
9. Upside Down- Jack Johnson
10. Caress Me Down- Sublime

Labels: cali, moving, unsettled