Another Outlet for My Reality Obsessed Self

I swear , I start out every blog about how much i miss my blog.



For Christmas I have a short list going... why i want CD's i dont know, as my music is totally portable, but something is fun about a CD.

-New Killers

-New Coldplay

-New Nickelback

-Tickets to go see Nickelback in April in Jax

-Singstar new version for Playstation

-A new cell- mine is G.H.E.T.T.O.

-some good valium

-a friend <-- Ok i am officially ready. How do you make a friend? i guess its not going around with a scowl on my face huh? God. boring. Salt life is good for me, but no matter where you go, the problems follow and although the novelty is NOT wearing off at all, i am afraid it will. I am enjoying the moments but also living in a haze. I dont want to work, feel guilty when i play ( because Wes is prob at work), need to exercise, .... Facebook is crazy- getting in touch with lots of people that i know from the way... past..... Same drama and click that was .... I am sooo over that shit. Fun to see where people are and what they are doing 20 yrs later though. omf. am i that old? We are going to have a lot of money in January with a business I am working on helping my rich brother.. (haha). Most people plan on saving. This is not in my plan. What i want to do with the money in no particular order. -Start my own college fund for the babies. My parents have one for them, but Florida has a great one that i want to begin. Wait! That's very responsible. -Pay off the last little bit on our cars. Wait! Yet again, responsible. -Take our trip to Greece. Chloe, are you there on my blog reads still? sigh, we have been planning this for years now. -Take the babies on a cruise. Fuck. They are going to be 10 and 8. babies no more, yet i can't help myself... maybe swim with dolphins or make some other great family memories. Things have been fah-ukkked not so long ago, and i love my life so much i want to just keep plugging along and making these precious memories. Wes said the other day how much he hates the word "blessed" as it is Christian-ese language, otherwise cliche , but there is no other word for it.

-Go see my friend in England for her birthday in April ( not the nickelback weekend).

Ok, i have a question, although i am prediciting your answer, assuming you are as big of a bitch as i am... WHYYY can 99 people do the right thing, but the "one" who doesn't act the way i think they should pisses me off?

The beach is a lovely place to be at Christmas. The people right across the street, with the teal house, have a nascar santa sleigh on their roof. NICE. and the people next to them have classy white lights illuminating their palm trees. we have gorgeous lights that are always on our balcony ( for when we have FRIENDS to set the mood outside) and added garland and more lights. so pretty. Got to love the beach. Everyone is so quirky... a touch redneck, a touch surfer, a touch dont give a shit, very unpretentious on my street... so fun. Fernandina is the neatest little town. I want to live here forever...

"so he stuck his middle finger to the world. to the world. to the world. "

ever have days like that?

thank God i am still anonymous , i couldnt handle the bullshit of un-newness...

how are you by the way? i miss you