Another Outlet for My Reality Obsessed Self

Some random bits of fug



- I am planning a retreat for 140 women. wht?? how did someone put me in charge>? yikes. It is gonna be phenom though. I am very excited, mostly about my trip up the day before to unwind before everyone gets there.



- I am a weirdo- when i go to the grocery store, i drive home, i go inside without the bags, leave them in the trunk of the car, till i feel like draggin them in , usually 45 min later. i just like to chill for a mo before unloading. lol. am i lazy?? maybe



-one should not take bendryl with icehouse , no?



-blue october is a f-ed up band. but good to sing a long to

- wonder how many times the texts that i send to wes never make it cause i accidentally send them to O'Charleys, the address under his in my phonebook? the one tonight said something like "play hard, be careful, dont get hurt, love u" .

- did you know that i ROCK in guitar hero? hmmmmm hmmmmmmmmmm/ whats your favorite tune? i have to say social distortion story of my life or the one by miss murder. if you dont play, well you just dont get it.

- i read other blogs and think 'how profound their writing" and how enlightening their writing and here i go messing up cyberspace with my dribble? ug. oh well. i do love my neglected blog, .

- i am in da funk AGAIN. gah. will it ever end? this meaningless search of bars called O'malleys and islands in the sun that make me feel so fine i can't control my brain? if i dont get a vaca soon, i shall surely explode

- read 90 minutes in heaven. you can buy it at the grocery store for crying out loud! GET. IT.
what u up to lately? are you suffering from S.A.D?
love , from da funk

Labels: beertrash, nothingness, unsettled, vacations all i ever wanted

My computer is dying. This blog post is probably it's last meal.
Happy New Year.
Some random thoughts to try to make me not be in da funk.

My smart husband knows how to change out a hard drive , so tomorrow we are fixing the puter.

Natasha Bedingfield makes me HAPPY AS ALL GET OUT. she just does.

Pink 'phones are so cute with my mp3. they made a good stocking stuffer/

Will i make it to Greece this year? i have a propostion for Wes. he is off to honduras for 9 days in a few weeks ( sure , it is a work trip, but HELLO it is with his two best friends and i am sure he will get in tons of soccer games and a free day or two). I think i should go to Greece by myself. the cost is so great for us both and who will watch the kids after all? LOL> i need to freaking get away before i run away ( and maybe wont come back?) I am sure Chloe will steer me to the ferry for mykonos and santorini and where else? kos? i am SURE i could do just fine alone. i am nothing if not a savvy traveler. ha.

Lily Allen also makes me smile. (but you were f'ing that girl next door. what'd you do that for? is prob the greatest snide lyric in a song ever). and Poor Amy W. she is a poor mess.

My car died. RIP Alex the Escape. Welcome Silver Durango with 3rd row seating, which scares me to death. i dont WANT to be able to drag that many people along. nope, not at all. it is very cute and cheap payments and less payments. it shall be mine free and clear in way less than two years. and it is a V8, so it is kind of bad ass and beast like. I ordered a new salt life sticker for the back .

Labels: of mouths of sailors, unsettled, vacations all i ever wanted

I am addicted to a song again. I am making copies, so if you would like one, just email me at loopielovesthebeach@yahoo.com with your address, and I will put one in the mail for you. If your birthday is in two days, you get one first!



I am having a "bout" of whatever i go through- self pity? self righteous? unsettledness? it tears me up . RT Kendall preached a message this morning that has me messed up. He is big on forgiveness, how it breaks chains, will free you up to receive blessings , etc. forgiveness is hard. BUT today, he said, there need not be reconciliation, forgetting or denial. It really did happen, but you don't have to be so dumb as to get close enough again to make it happen again. you dont have to go be their super close friend again. for instance, you get cheated on... forgive (how hard that would be!! ) but dont go on family vacation with the offender.. you see? unforgiveness can cause all kinds of physical conditions, not to mention the emotional and spiritual affects. forgiveness i think i got down pat this morning.... but THEN. he said to BLESS YOUR ENEMIES. what?? WHAT?? bless them?? pray for blessings for them? wow. i am still chewing on that one. I will let you know how it goes.



We are in such a screw up in "religion" and that is why i hate religion. i am about being a barbarian, a revolutionary, no rules except the ones that God gave me, pleasing no one but God, religion makes me SICK . in the church, we are so busy being spiritual that we are neglecting the ones who need the most attention- those who may be struggling, breaking promises, not coming through because we are too busy being super-spiritual and religious. these other people are dying inside because of how we re treating them, and this goes for outside the church as well ( i am talking about what got impressed deeply upon me today).



(i am listening to justin timberlake summerlove right now, do you want that on your cd?? LOL) i am also drinking a cointreau margarita. so i am all riled up. lol.



i went to church tonight and isnt it weird how you can feel so alone in a group of 500? i got so upset as i looked around me and saw the unforgivenss and the enemies. am i crazy? i am crazy holding grudges for this one not treating my other friend right, this one that i forgave this morning, but still uncomfortable with them sitting right behind me, another doing such and such. i know it was the devil at work, playing with me.

that has been happening a lot lately. i am in a serious funk. i think it was the vacation that did it to me. i should be permanently on vacation. i love Paul Wright . I need to quit listening to him so much- it makes me too sad that i live in freaking land locked columbia. that is not the song for your CD. but i may put it on there to fill some space.

Labels: justin, vacations all i ever wanted

Tomorrow we are OFF to sunny Florida! We are taking the kids (and dogs and hamster, might I add) to see their Grandparents, cousins, uncles, aunts, etc... and then we are taking them to DISNEYWORLD! I am very excited about this because they are not getting any younger and I think the novelty of the princesses has already worn off for Julia- so I don't want to wait any longer.
But what I am most excited about is... on Thursday, I am ditching them all and going to Sara's to spend the night , hang out, love up on her boys, see her house, and just have a good time. Her latest blog entry is about all the damn people who come visit her HAHAHHA .... surely looopie love doesn't count, right sara?
We will be back Sunday morning because this guy is preaching and I don't want to miss it... we will be dragging in just in time to hear him, but it will be worth it. he is our youth leader, and we have been playing teenagers and going to hear him preach every Wednesday instead of big people church. lol.
I am stressed because i have a house about to close and this is NOT an ideal time for vacation. Hope it all runs smoothly till i can get back. I am sure i will be trying to find a fax machine at disney- OH LORD don't let me turn into one of those people.
I will be checking my blog so leave me lots of love.

Labels: vacations all i ever wanted