and she has a dream to be queen of ocean
2007-06-25
I am addicted to a song again. I am making copies, so if you would like one, just email me at loopielovesthebeach@yahoo.com with your address, and I will put one in the mail for you. If your birthday is in two days, you get one first!
I am having a "bout" of whatever i go through- self pity? self righteous? unsettledness? it tears me up . RT Kendall preached a message this morning that has me messed up. He is big on forgiveness, how it breaks chains, will free you up to receive blessings , etc. forgiveness is hard. BUT today, he said, there need not be reconciliation, forgetting or denial. It really did happen, but you don't have to be so dumb as to get close enough again to make it happen again. you dont have to go be their super close friend again. for instance, you get cheated on... forgive (how hard that would be!! ) but dont go on family vacation with the offender.. you see? unforgiveness can cause all kinds of physical conditions, not to mention the emotional and spiritual affects. forgiveness i think i got down pat this morning.... but THEN. he said to BLESS YOUR ENEMIES. what?? WHAT?? bless them?? pray for blessings for them? wow. i am still chewing on that one. I will let you know how it goes.
We are in such a screw up in "religion" and that is why i hate religion. i am about being a barbarian, a revolutionary, no rules except the ones that God gave me, pleasing no one but God, religion makes me SICK . in the church, we are so busy being spiritual that we are neglecting the ones who need the most attention- those who may be struggling, breaking promises, not coming through because we are too busy being super-spiritual and religious. these other people are dying inside because of how we re treating them, and this goes for outside the church as well ( i am talking about what got impressed deeply upon me today).
(i am listening to justin timberlake summerlove right now, do you want that on your cd?? LOL) i am also drinking a cointreau margarita. so i am all riled up. lol.
i went to church tonight and isnt it weird how you can feel so alone in a group of 500? i got so upset as i looked around me and saw the unforgivenss and the enemies. am i crazy? i am crazy holding grudges for this one not treating my other friend right, this one that i forgave this morning, but still uncomfortable with them sitting right behind me, another doing such and such. i know it was the devil at work, playing with me.
that has been happening a lot lately. i am in a serious funk. i think it was the vacation that did it to me. i should be permanently on vacation. i love Paul Wright . I need to quit listening to him so much- it makes me too sad that i live in freaking land locked columbia. that is not the song for your CD. but i may put it on there to fill some space.
Labels: justin, vacations all i ever wanted
posted by gina at 4:04 AM Permalink
10 Comments:
forgiveness...
i believe comes in layers...
it is so hard...
and what do you do when a certain person continues to hurt you... E asked me that when I was talking to her...
3:56 PM
First of all - you blog is so
gosh darn beautiful:)
Secondly - your heart is all that
matters. Narrow your focus -
don't get weighed down by
others - just be your own
lovely loopy joyful sweet self.
That is God's true spirit.
If you are upset with others
(and I know all about that)
it can truly weight you down -
so just lift up - and soar
....your lovely spirit is a gift
to everyone.
I would love a copy please if there
are enough...:)
9:17 PM
i have unlimited copies!! LOL send me your address.
hc, i dont know. that is a tough one. ask RT?
madelyn, a million hugs. you made my day!! send me your address
10:07 PM
If you can't forget (which depending on the circumstances is very hard to do), then how can you truly forgive? You could go about trying to maintain the same relationship as before but it will be altered, whether we like it or not. When there is a kind of betrayal in friendship then it comes down to a matter of trust and without trust, what kind of friendship is that?
I have no idea of the particulars of your situation but this is how I see the issue in general terms and so I would still be chewing over what that RT dude said as well. Easier said than done I suspect.
I like your take on religion, I love the revolutionary Barbarian bit and I totally agree with you. Religion has let itself become institutionalised, regulated, corrupted and twisted. It needs to strip away the rules and hierarchy and just get back to the basics of personal faith and be good to others.
Until that happens I know I won't ever join a church again. I'll stick with my own beliefs: I am a good person and I am good to others and that's enough for me.
Gawd, a bit of a rant - sorry. Love the name Loopie btw, my husband used to call me Looby and you just reminded me of that.
6:18 AM
gina,
thank you : )
you are a sneaky girl : )
it was good to see you this morning.
so how was the front?
8:34 PM
the front scared the crap out of me. you should have been there. my thought is that i want to be invisible, not look at me! but the ones i sat with says it is being at the forefront , being a leader , lol.
i thought katie would like those beads... lol and they will look good on you. i luv u
9:21 PM
hmmm...
did they really say that?
12:34 AM
indeed they did.
anyway, i was dared :)
6:37 AM
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11:19 PM
It seems I always feel most alone in a crowd.
Those were some wise words on forgiveness
11:20 PM
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