maybe it is too much freaking kurt cobain and his lithium. dont worry- no plans of ODing !! LOL
2007-07-24
I think I am bi-polar. Or clinically depressed. I can't seem to get "out of it". I am sure i know part of the problem (outta my meds for diabetes and thyroid) but I am so sick of the ups and downs. I am listening to perky Weezer "island in the sun" and it seriously bums me out. i should not be allowed to listen to such damn happy songs. makes me crazy.
now another freaking perky song, rock this party. sigh.
I feel so alone in this big bad world. I have my family and thats cool. i love those people. but i am getting my feelings hurt too easily lately and it is getting on my own nerves. i need to suck up, buck up, all those things. i have to take sominex at night to be able to sleep, and i hate how it makes me groggy the next day. it doesnt help that i am a restaurant widow this week ....
i hate being sad. i am usually fairly friendly, but just weird lately. i keep listening to Nirvana Lithium- maybe i need some of that! (not kurt but pills).
rock this party
dance everybody
make it hawwwt in this party
dont stop move your body... that makes me smile a little bit. also making me crack one is Lily Allen... the song SMILE . have you heard it? the first lines are so ... whatever. i love how bold she is to sing what she sings.
can someone come out to a bar with me , cuss a lot, drink a lot, smoke a lot and just be bad for a little while? (isnt that a country song)hahahahha but it will be a temp fix. just kiddingggggggg
do you give up stuff because you KNOW it is bad, but then sometimes crave it anyway? i need to get me some Jesus today!
in other news, my kitchen got painted today!
posted by gina at 6:57 AM Permalink
7 Comments:
I haven't slept in about a year. Try valerian (available in the supplements aisle of your local pharmacy). It doesn't knock you out, but when you fall asleep, you sleep really well, and you feel much more rested the next day.
3:56 PM
did you tell me about this a few years ago, when i mentioned this problem? someone did........i will go pick some up. thanks
5:11 PM
I may have mentioned it before. I use it from time to time, but I've been taking it for about a month now. Try the Nature's Resource brand.
2:36 AM
where did my comment go???
gina,
please go get your meds...
it could be playing a much bigger "part" of how you feel emotionally than you think..
i have a surprise for you! : )
3:48 AM
I have trouble sleeping occasionally too. I usually rug up on the couch, get really comfy and put a damn good movie on - I always seem to fall asleep in the good ones and I don't mind so much if I sleep on the couch as long as I sleep. btw, I love that Weezer song, I can understand how it makes you blue though. It is quite a haunting happy song.
5:01 AM
((Gina)) Have you told your doctor how you feel? I'm giving you a gentle shove to get the medicines you need. If you don't listen I might have to give you a firm kick in the booty.
4:52 AM
nothing has ever helped me go to sleep apart from : sex and listening to podcasts -not music- my ipod. Try it (preferably, not at the same time )
xxxx
12:28 PM
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