Another Outlet for My Reality Obsessed Self

Has anyone read the book "The Dive From Claussen's Pier"? Lifetime made a movie of the book, and i watched it tonight. It just tears my heart all to shreds. Spoiler warning--- basically, there is this couple from high school, been dating for five years, now engaged, perfect golden couple. Every fourth of july, they go to the lake to swim and party. The girl, Keri, decides that she is going to call the engagement off that day. Before she can do so, her fiancee dives head first into the lake and breaks his neck. He becomes paralyzed. She obviously has a hard time dealing with it, and while he is still in the hospital dealing with his new situation, she winds up moving to NYC to "find herself". It is such a good story and makes me wonder what i would do in her shoes.

Today, at Blake's basketball game, my heart ached again. One of Blake's great friends (sits by him on the bus ride home everyday) came in with his dad and younger brother. His parents are divorced. Jeannie, Sully's mom, is precious and darling- a good catch if i had any single male friends. Well, Jeannie wasnt at the game today, because it was the weekend and dad has custody. I am supposing she doesnt want to see her EX, so she stays away. Jeannie is a great mom-I am not that good of friends with her, just know her casually, and we always kind of promise to go work out together or go get margaritas sometime. IT kills me to know that this couple, who's oldest kid is in first grade, could not make it work. i am not trying to judge their circumstances, but really, maybe i am, because you could not KEEP me away from one of my kids games, practices, breakfast, homework, any measly detail for that matter. i wonder why people cant work it out, especially with kids involved. i could not imagine something happening to my marriage that i would want out, but God forbid something did, we would have to just have seperate rooms or something because neither one of us would give up a day with our kids. I am not being rude about Jeannie, but just thinking about her, and not having her kids every night, just breaks MY HEART. I am sure it breaks hers too. Please dont leave me nasty comments about how some people cant make it work, blah blah. I am an old fashioned girl. marriage is forever. it is hard. it is worth it.

All this while i was snuggling blake tonight before bed. he just loved on me and kissed me. I just adore my kids so much. I want an easy life for them. I think the divorced dad today made me realise that a lot of kids dont have it easy, and it makes me very very sad.

On a happier note, i have a horrible cough and took some codeine. Maybe that is why i am chatty.

Happy Sunday peeps.